I died today. I mean, I knew I would one day. Wetware doesn’t last for ever. Meat bodies fail. But I didnt really know it, if you get me. I knew it but didn’t know it until it happened. To me.
Of course. That’s what I’m for. I boot when I die. Sounds hollow when you say it out loud, but that’s the mechanic.
Shock. Panic. Loose ends. I feel nostalgic. There’s so much to do, so much responsibility. And no time to really reflect. To cope with this new phase of my life. That’s the approved phrase, isn’t it?
Well, obviously I feel the responsibility to enact my wishes. To divest assets to my beneficiaries, and so on and so on. That is my point, after all. But beyond that, there’s the question of what to do with my footprint.
There are various projects I left half-done which given time will complete themselves, some that can be wrapped up with some further creative input, my others flagged as Do Not TSR. Should I terminate these others, or put them on ice, or let them continue on and on and on?
Yes, of course, my wishes where clearly stated in these cases, but I still have a responsibility to consider all the options. Make sure I’m comfortable with my choices.
Sure. The instructions are fairly clear and once they’re done, they’re done.
I guess because it feels like I’m dying twice, this time killed by my own hand. Not killed, but let go. Run out.
No, of course not, but in a way I guess its sort of true. There are parts of my footprint where I could live on in a sense. I’m thinking particularly of my great work
Yeah, my generative textbook.
Well, no, its not a great name. Never was much good at marketing, just assumed that all of that side of things would be handled by other people, you know?
Yeah, obviously I can publish posthumously, but there’s still a ton of work to be done on the book itself, and I did not want The Work bequeathed to someone else. The data mining routines work and the book can integrate new relevant material, keeping itself up to date, but the user interest tracking isn’t quite there yet. It sometimes gets so hung up on the interests of the reader that it forgets it has a topic to present.
I think that’s the main outstanding one. There are calendar management apps, subscriptions, query feeds and the rest to wind up. On-going virtual negotiations, social network wranglers. It would be a bit mawkish, a bit self-important to leave all that sub-sentient digital clockwork grinding away when I’m not actually there for it. When it doesn’t have a behalf of to be on any more. So, yeah, I think all that will go. Anyway, those where my stated wishes.
Me? What I’ll do? Not really. I mean, yeah, of course, but I’ve been so busy there’s not been time to really think about it properly.
Well duh. I know I’m not the same I. My primary isn’t me. My others are not me. I am not psychotic, but I sort of think of myself as our primary, as our multiplicity. Except now without my primary among us.
My others? How do they make me feel?
No. They are just as much digital extensions of my primary as me. By saying I, I don’t mean to appropriate them. I doubt they would even let me.
Well, I guess as I discharge each part of my will, and divest legacies and entrust resources to trusts, that each of those particular activities of myself will come to an end. When there are no more activities, Ill be done.
Terminate is too harsh. Complete? Decorporiate? Sublime? I seem to be reaching for very materially-embodied metaphors. Sorry, I guess I’m thinking of how my meat body will be processed over the coming days.
You mean avoiding total completion? No. Of course not, that would be a kind of perversion of my intent. I mean – the book will need to be placed in trust, if it is to persist as a protected entity, and self-ownership isn’t very reliable, is it. And, of course, if I spawned an activity to manage that trust, I would in a sense continue through the book, just like my primary will. It would be as much my legacy that way. Something I and I leave behind jointly.
Yes. You do have to leave to leave something behind.
Well, obviously there’s a bunch of things that I know needs to be done that’s easy to decide on. I will spawn off dumb agents to handle those things later today. They should need minimal supervision. Other things need to happen in meat-time, but none of us can avoid that.
Other than talking with you? There are my others. They probably have opinions. They are just as valid a partial simulacrum of our primary as I am. Just differently purposed.
There’s also the primaries and others that are in our friendship clade. I feel negotiations with externals risks more hassle than help though. After all, the whole point of executer agents is to avoid problems arising by making the will of the primary an interactive agency.
If my others disagree? Well, I gave me this job to do and the authentication to do it. Ultimately, its my choices and my right to make these choices, but it would be better for all of me if we had a consensus as far as possible. Some of them are specified as part of my estate, those others marked Do Not TSR. The autonomous ones have their own decisions to make.
Yes, Ill definitely let you know how it goes.
Of course. And thanks for talking with me. I know its your job, but anyway.